The Life Of A Rocky Mountain Girl

Just keep a hold on me .. don't let go

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Crazy

robinsinclair:

We have had a crazy busy week. Monday, of course, we were at the clinic all day. Everything went very well. Robin got vincristine through her port and methotrexate through her spine. I don’t think I will ever get used to that feeling of putting her to sleep. I held her on the table in the operating room and felt her body go limp. Laying her gently on the white table, kissing her, and walking away is very, very hard. It brings me to tears every time and I hate it. I sit nervously in the exam room and wait for someone to tell me she is okay. The waiting is torture. But on Monday, like every time before, she was okay.

She woke up as soon as I arrived in the recovery area. Our neighbor, Rosanna, is one of the nurses in the clinic and she was overseeing Robin’s care that day. It is so nice to have an even more familiar face there. It is comforting to me and to Robin. As soon as Robin woke up, she asked for a drink. She settled in with apple juice, and the packed lunch we had brought from home.

All of Robin’s medications were increased because she has grown so much! Between August 30 and Monday, she grew 3 cm! She is 34.8 lbs and 39.8 inches. It seems like it took her forever to crack 30 lbs, but she keeps growing. This is a very good thing!

She started her steroid pulse on Monday night. As expected, she is very tired and is napping every day. She is also very hungry so we work hard to meet her needs, attempting to make sure she eats nutritionally, but even that is a challenge sometimes.

On Wednesday, the 4 of us stood in line for 3.5 hours to get the H1N1 vaccine. Can you believe it? Children’s Hospital, which is one of the hospitals that TESTED the vaccine earlier this year, still doesn’t have it. The City health clinics had a small amount of it so we decided to try our luck. I am really glad we got it, especially as we anticipate 2 upcoming trips (FL and DC in November).

I am so behind on everything I want to say and all of the pictures I want to post. There is just so little time in the day to get it all done. So I will end this even before I am ready to, but work responsibilities call. Maybe one day I will finally feel caught up, but probably not.

Sara

I think the trick is

duckpop22:

othersideofsanity:

to find someone you can stand being around long enough, and mutually decide to make it work. That’s it. I think 99% of the problems aren’t from incompatibility or any of that bullshit, but from someone deciding that they don’t want to make it work anymore. Which may or may not be a good decision, either way.

But I think that’s how it works.

And that’s my thought for the night.

Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

iamblessed:

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans… She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ’ Tell me what you see’.

‘Carrots, eggs, and coffee,’ she replied…

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.. the mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, ‘What does it mean, mother?’

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.The ground coffee beans were unique, how ever. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

‘Which are you?’ she asked her daughter. ‘When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you all be coffee beans :)